David gets paid today, and we have a stack of bills to pay. The ones that I pretended didn't come over the happy Christmas season. The ones that I totally forgot about...well not really...but filed away in my mind to be dealt with later. Sadly, later has arrived. Car insurance is due on the car that I can't afford to fix and drive. Ironic.
And the girls. Olivia has had some sort of a growth spurt, and none of her school clothes fit. It makes me upset. She is getting bigger. That in itself makes me sad. I want to shrink them. Keep them little. But since that isn't going to happen, the growth is hard to keep up with. I feel like we just got her new sneakers. But she needs new pants, and new shoes, and new shirts. That is just her public school uniform. She also needs new jeans, and a new winter coat, and some new socks. It never ends.
Charlotte is tiny, and has not had a growth spurt in a while. And thankfully, she gets all of Olivia's clothes, so she has a massive wardrobe. But her sneakers aren't fitting quite so well anymore. And she needs new socks. And everybody needs new gloves, because they disappear. Daily. No matter how many gloves I buy, they vanish. It is a seasonal mystery.
Food level is low. I hate how empty the fridge looks at the end of the pay cycle. I pull what we have in there closer to the front of the shelves so it doesn't look quite so empty. We had pasta last night with sauce that I made and canned over the summer, from tomatoes from Josie Porter Farm. The smell of the basil, and those beautiful tomatoes took me back to a warmer time. A time that did not have me panicked that my heat was running CONSTANTLY.
And I swear, someone is eating grated cheese here, by the bowl full. We go through so much of it. Or maybe it's that we eat so much pasta. Either way, I am always buying it, and it is always gone. Another mystery. The cheese and the gloves are somewhere together laughing at me.
The price of paper napkins has gotten so out of control, that I just can't do it anymore. To buy something that you are going to throw away just drives me crazy. We have been using cloth ones, but that makes me nuts, because it increases laundry, and that is an expense. Eating is costing too much as it is. I just can't add to the expense. I swear, I wish we were like snakes, and only required a meal or two, every few months. This daily eating, and all the paraphernalia that it requires is putting me over the edge.
Weather man says that the "warmer temperatures" we had been having will return. That will be a relief.
I can't take the expense of just sitting in my warm house. It is way too costly.